Valentines and Relationships

Well I haven't posted in a while, now have I?

Firstly I'd like to wish the few people that view this blog a very happy Valentine's Day. May it be a helluva lot better than mine is. I truly hope you readers out there can spend it with someone, as opposed to me rushing work and playing video games cuz I'm a lonely bastard.

Now I came to a realization just this morning.
Like most people, I'd like a relationship. I'd like to not be this lonely, especially on a day like Valentine's Day, where every happy couple is out and about being happy and I'm sitting in a secluded corner thinking "Well, maybe next year..." every year.

But this morning, I came to the realization that maybe... maybe I'm not ready for one.

Think about it, I'm insecure and I can sometimes get too attached to a person too fast because of it.
I'm annoying. That's pretty self-explanatory.
I'm weird and awkward. I honestly think that is the biggest reason why people don't really like me and why I don't get along with people.

I honestly hate that I'm so unstable, I wish I was ready for a relationship cuz that's what I really want.

But I'm not.

I'm not ready for it. Plain and simple.

I honestly don't think I could make anyone happy. I'm too caught up in hating myself to love someone else anyways. I'm an ugly and annoying dipshit anyways.

So happy Valentine's Day to all you happy couples, and to the single people like me, maybe you'll get lucky next year :)