I'll be home soon, guys.

Today was my first and last performance with the Drama Club. With everything that's going on in my life right now, I needed to leave to get my shit in order and sort out my own personal matters. It's only been a few hours since I officially ended my tenure with them and I already miss them so dearly. I saw juniors crying cuz their beloved seniors leaving. (not me, the juniors weren't all that close to me, but they did start crying a little harder when I said I was leaving too.)

The performance was great, and no matter what anyone says, I say we did a bang up job. After the performance, I went down to the studio to see people crying and hugging. I finally revealed to those that didn't know (a lot of people didn't know) and got my fair share of hugs and goodbyes too. It really broke my heart to see just how badly leaving affected them.

Needless to say, tonight (the night of the performance) was filled with tweets and posts about how much we love the club and how we were gonna be reciting lines and quotes from the shows for the next few like weeks or so. I can honestly say I can't listen to my Halo 2 soundtrack without thinking of the performance and how much I miss the drama club. I was so proud of the juniors, they proved me oh-so-right when they showed just how talented and amazing they were. And the seniors, well what can I say? They performed with all the grace and commitment to character that one would expect from such seasoned and talented performers.

I hope the shit in my life blows over soon, cuz till it does I can't return. I don't know how I'll get through the week without all the craziness and oddities of drama that I've become so accustomed to in the past few months. Not being able to see them, to get my customary hugs that always make me that little bit better when I had a crap day. It's gonna be a long and hard ride to the day I get back, but I just hope when I do, there's still a spot with my name on it in the club. Cuz even though I'm no actor, I can't act at all, I've found a little bit of a home within this big bunch of nutty actors and actresses. And now that I've left, I count the days till I can come back.

It's not goodbye,
It's not even farewell,
It's just a "see you later" is all.
(Quoted by a friend who, sadly, had to leave as well.)

And I will see you all later, hopefully real soon.
I'll always be there for all of you if you guys need anything. So even when I'm gone, a small part of me will be there with you all. And the second you all need help, I'll be right there to lend a hand.

To any of you from drama that may read my blog in future, I love you guys so so much and I await that fateful day when this big teddy bear comes home.