Fallen Angels. Not demons, just brilliant beings with a lot of regrets.
I've always had some... affinity for these beings. I don't know why. I always believed myself a good person, but lately I've begun to question that. Maybe I'm not as good as I thought I was. But I digress. Lately, I've been a lot darker and a lot less happy than before. I can understand how a fallen angel feels, cuz I feel like one right now. I was so much better in the past. A lot happier, a lot stronger, a lot brighter, a lot more everything.
I'm darker now. Angrier, sadder, always doubting myself. I always put myself down, think of myself as practically worthless and absolutely useless.
Unwanted, a burden, despised and disliked, hated even. Not just by anyone, but by everyone. Even friends. I feel like I'm a burden. Dead weight that they would be happier and lighter and better off without. Without me in their lives...
I feel like a fallen angel.
This picture says a lot. I just... I don't even know why, but I can feel the pain and regret in it.
Maybe I can find my redemption some day?
Or maybe I've become the demon I've been fighting all this time?
I honestly don't know who I really am anymore.
2 comments:
Redemption, Damnation... I think in this world, it's nigh impossible to tell the difference between the two. Just be who you think you are, and make constant changes to suit yourself better. I'm not sure if this makes sense, so it's up to your own interpretation.
I don't know who I am, I don't know who I think I am. The person I thought I was, well I think he's long gone by now. So honestly I have no clue what's real about me and what's a front. I'm obviously not as good as I once thought I was. Sometimes I just want to go back to the way things were and who I was in the past. Like those angels. But a fallen angel doesn't get forgiveness, he just lives with his sins.
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